Those were the days...

A lil thought would do

2012-01-31T11:14:00.004+08:00

Was pissed off with him on last friday. It's not bcus of you having to enjoy with your colleagues, it was the words that hurt me. You still don't know how to handle your words carefully, I totally can understand you. But after hours, the first call from you. Why is it that within the hour, you didn't even to bother to call me.

Sat somewhere to enjoy the breeze. Count myself lucky to have her when I needed someone. She came down and accompanied me though she was feeling unwell.

I thought to myself, why do i bother so much about what you have said when you are out there enjoying yourself? My heart rules my brain, that's all I can say. Afterwhich we patched things up and i know you are sorry for what you have said.

Always felt like a lil girl when I'm with him. Pampering me , care & concern just simply makes me a happy girl!

Done with lunch and back to work! How I hope the time passes quickly.

Xoxo,
Signing off...

Year 2012 ; Memo 1

2012-01-05T15:49:00.003+08:00

In the year 2010, Halloween Party got me wasted.

Been craving for Brewerkz....

Pri-mates

This cute lil boy name is Javier.

I can't load pictures into livejournal so I am left with no choice but to update this space here.

I do not know why am i here jotting down my thoughts. Had this very random thought that I should capture down those beautiful memories for myself, in the near future. It's only the 5th day of the Year 2012. I've lots of things to do in this year! Such like, earn BIG money!!! While typing, my leg started to feel itchy.(Ohkay, I know it's kind of random but I just want to remind myself what I was doing while trying to update this space)

Actually I shouldn't be updating this space at this timing as I am still in the midst of working but I wanna eat snake... Well, just applied cream to the itch and it doesn't help at all !!

Memories from the past just triggered by past me today when I was viewing the photos taken at different places. Places like MDIS, clubs etc... I really miss those times spent together with my peers. As for now, I'm really greatful to have found him, the special one and only. Yes, you got it right. I am referring to my BoyF. Always being there for me and making my day end wonderfully. Never did he despise me and look down on me. The paths that we walked through together wasn't long, wasn't short but long enough for me to know his character BUT he has yet to understand me thoroughly but no fear, we have lots of precious time to spend in the future. I'm not trying to boast about him but I can admit that he's the GOOD guy that I have been searching for.

I've always been looking forward for a short getaway trip with him and Daphne. Untag Genting Highlands for the moment. Been there 3 times last year and I don't wish to visit and donate my money again for the time being till I've visited places like HK or BKK.

Shall update this little space again.

& till then !

New year 2011 , New revolution

2011-01-03T12:14:00.002+08:00

It's a new year 2011 . Therefore a new revolution too !

Thinking back in Year 2010, was still working in inQbox and now, Pansing Mag. Things come and go and happiness and unhappiness happened. Well, one good thing that I'm really happy was, I found myself a good and caring BoyF. He never fails to endure and makes me smile when I'm upset or feeling moody and always there for me, likewise me always there for him to listen to his naggings at work. ETC...

I'm already feeling lazy to cont...

My new year revolution for 2011...

Earn more $
Have more savings
Good health among all
Stay happy with BF forever ! :D

TO.BE.CONTINUED.

eleven08ten

2010-09-21T23:27:00.002+08:00

Feels happy whenever with him. Gives me the number one place in his heart. It feels superb good! I'm a blissful girl with him by my side. (:

weekly routine

2010-07-25T14:01:00.002+08:00

Happy moments passes quickly. How I wish that moment could be stagnant !
Till now, it's like a weekly routine. At least once a week !
Boom! :D

6 down and 2 up

2010-07-18T21:57:00.004+08:00

A sigh of relief! I'm over you and I am happy about it. Moving on to my future that is awaiting for me!

New chapter in life.

6 down and 2 up. Way to gooooooooooo ! =)

Misses ! =)

I rather have bad times with you than good times with someone else.

2010-06-20T23:29:00.002+08:00

Been rather lazy to update my miserable blog. But I've decided to do it now. Great companions these few weeks. Different places to hangout and activities. I guess I really getting sick of clubbing, maybe towards PH. Been there for not more than 5 hours yesterday and we decided to head to H.I.G.H . Thanks D for fetching us ! =)

Never fail to make me laugh like a mad woman. HAHAHA!

Mad love with Flaming lambo. Had two yesterday but the alcohol didn't lasted. =(!

You never fulfil your promises that you made to me. You never once meant what you say. You never once understand what I'm thinking or feeling. I will really move on if I have find someone better. =)

I rather have bad times with you than good times with someone else.

爱上你是不需要理由，因为那个理由已经足够

2010-05-24T01:10:00.002+08:00

I miss you, ♥Silly.

Never did I miss someone so much that every minute, every seconds , ure always on my mind. I really need a rehab !

♥♥爱上你是不需要理由，因为那个理由已经足够。♥♥

Time for miracle

2010-05-16T23:20:00.002+08:00

Time for miracle.

After 2 months, I'm still into you. That is so unlike me at all. But I feel that it isn't going anywhere, as we're still stagnant. Not much changes much, but I guess this might be better? Just let it be and let fate decide.

You'll be heading for Genting Highland tomorrow night. Please take care of yourself and be back in one piece K? Though it's just for two days. But I will still be worried for you.

Saw my eye candy again for the third time ! And really obsessed. Hehe*

If i were to see eye candy again, I'll walk up and talk to him ! =)

Saw somethings and I realised she always say this but does that. But what to do, love is blind. Better not keep in contact with him in case I got the name of "bitch" or whatsoever you wish to name me. Once bitten, twice shy.

I move on and I don't look back. There's a reason why those people didn't make it to my future. =)

Silly, I don't know whether those things you told me was the truth or not. But I still chose to believe you. So please don't make me disappointed in you K? If not, I will really have to move on again.

Should I?

2010-05-04T13:03:00.002+08:00

Though I said I want to let go of this feelings that I have for you, it's really impossible for me to do it. I always wonder to myself. Why is it whenever I post those serious status as you have mentioned, you'll always appear again? I posted them is to tell myself to let go of these fruitless beginning. I told you that and you said you'll leave me alone and never bother me anymore. At that point of time, I was hell afraid of losing you. Ever since, I never felt this way. I don't know what I want but I just want to maintain these between us. I am satisfied with all these. I don't wish for more just in case things turned out sour.

All I wish now is for Saturday's birthday bash to be happening and BFF Daphne to enjoy herself.
Thanks girl, for everything. Being there for me when I'm feeling down. Scold me to gain my senses back. Etc. Shall do one official post for her after the chalet =)

I wanna see that eenie meenie miney mo lover of mine

2010-04-25T20:01:00.002+08:00

Party on the friday and rest on a Saturday. Which happens to be this week. Acc-ed my mother for breakfast today and the sun is freaking hot!!

Wednesday headed for Lan shop. How I wished I could pause the time when you fb chat with me "Love u" . It really felt sweet at that point of time.

We had known each other for over a month and we never fail to contact each other every day. Till now, I'm still not bored of you which means... =)

Ure working and though we hardly text or talk on the phone, at the end of the day, I will still receive you message! I like that ohkay !! =))

I wanna see that eenie meenie miney mo lover of mine ! =)

Sunshine after rain

2010-04-12T18:02:00.002+08:00

We had a chat this morning... And I feel that we were like before. I like that feeling... You knew I have feelings for you and you called me stupid... I miss you , boy.

It really makes me upset to see girls calling you baby, honey and silly(which is only called by ME). I just want you to stand in my shoes. You don't like me meeting guys but you think I like girls calling and saying those things to you? I don't like. I'll cry my lungs out which I did on Saturday.

Why is it whenever I told myself to sort things out, you'll appear? I don't expect much, just wanna you to understand how I felt. =)

How much I wanted to tell you IMY when you asked me. But I just don't dare...

I miss you, Silly. =)

Whatya want from me

2010-04-08T18:20:00.004+08:00

I seriously don't know what are you thinking. Does being honest becomes an offend? I spoke the truth to you but you were unhappy about it. Better then I hide and not tell you? Texted you several times but no reply. Text you again today saying good luck for your appeal. Normally you would reply me but now? WTF! I asked myself is this what I want? I guess not. I told buddies that I don't want to process more cause I know that in side myself, I don't think you are the one. Well, life is like this. I just have to accept it?

Hey, slow it down
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah, I'm afraid
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
I would give myself away
(Ooh) Once upon a time
I didn't give a damn
But now here we are
So whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, it's plain to see
That baby you're beautiful
And it's nothing wrong with you
It's me... I'm a freak
But thanks for lovin' me
Cause you're doing it perfectly

There might have been a time
When I would let you step away
I wouldn't even try but I think
You could save my life

Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don't give up on me
I won't let you down
No, I won't let you down

So
Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me

Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
(Whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

I just want that Mac'Silly back.

Could I?

I am not being selfish right? =)

Eenie meenie money mo lover

2010-04-02T03:14:00.002+08:00

Eenie meenie money mo lover ♥

I.M.Y(silly) !

10 Days alr.

Remedy to my illness

2010-03-26T02:37:00.003+08:00

Didn't really sleep much today. When I started to fall asleep, R.E kept spamming my phone and I can't sleep in peace !!! Arggggggg! But lucky it's a good news. I'm going for a job interview tomorrow at 10am. I hope I will be able to wake up in time for it. Cause I can really feel that my whole body is so weak. Wasn't feeling really good as in my health, but once I received his msg, It's like a remedy to me. I smiled the moment I read the msg. So sweet can !!! Hehehehe :D

Ure like a happy pill to me. =)

FUCK

2010-03-25T06:25:00.002+08:00

Just back home after clubbing at St James Power Station. Woke up real early but fell back asleep at 11am+. Prepare and went for interview at 5pm. Window shopping and headed to PH.

Felt so happy when I saw "=)". Sigh, he didn't sent me much msg this few days. Whatever, I won't be the girl that will be waiting for guys to text. Fuck those things and stuffs that you asked me that day. That's me. If you want it, you text me. If not, so be it though I will not be used to it. But whatsoever it is, I have to get used to it. Nothing can carry on like this. I am gonna start work on weekends and i doubt I will be clubbing occasionally. Though Im like always saying these same old things. Saturday and Sunday full shift. Seriously, how I can carry on like this? Maybe once or twice per month? Idk... Weird feelings. FUCK !

I am back !

2010-03-23T03:14:00.005+08:00

I am back ! My blog has been rotting for months ! Have been really lazy to do some updating. But finally, I am sitting in front of my laptop and doing some updates !

Well, for the past few months I have been clubbing like no bodies business and i am currently jobless. My previous company " inQbox " closed down. Don't ask me why , as I don't know the reason to it. It's really a pity as I have feelings for it for the past 1 year. Time passes really quickly and now I am hitting twenties' soon. My peers around me says that they are afraid of hitting twenties but I think it's like nothing. Maybe when I really hit twenties, I'll feel old. Seriously, I need to find a job real soon ! Any lobangs ??

Recently many things happened and I can't really explain all in one night. I think I'm falling sick as I have sore throat now! Not enough sleep these few days. I really need a good sleep ! I miss my ex-colleagues from inQbox.

I wonder when will our tanning session be........... *Laughs*

More random photos to be loaded tomorrow...

Till then...

PS.Tag me your links so i can relink. Thanks.

home

2009-11-22T03:00:00.003+08:00

Being a good girl to stay at home on a Saturday night. How rare of me which mostly people would say if they were to see me online. Can't I get tired and no mood for clubbing? I am a human, I do need a break too. Hoping to explore more places rather than to hang at the same old place which makes me feel sick.

I have to many things in mind to buy and I'm going broke soon! Had been eyeing for heels recently and I am so afraid that I can't resist the temptation and buy it!

Need to save for the upcoming trip in feb! Can't wait for it!

Need some work out soon! Most prob on Monday! Maybe I'll be sleeping early today. Surprisingly... Haha

Lost without you

2009-11-20T01:29:00.003+08:00

Having the sudden urge to blog so here I am. Well, currently I'm having the cravings for prawning... Anyone?? Had this craving due to my weird dream.

The weather has been freezing cold for the past few days. How I wished I could have a warmth hug. It has been some time since I felt that warmth. I remembered the moments spent with him. Just some random thinking while working. And whenever the song "You found me" is playing, eventually, you will come straight to my mind. Guess that I still can't really put you behind. Somehow I still miss you very much. Don't ask me why cause I don't know it myself either.

Feeling lethargic for the past few days too. I don't know why am I so tired lately. I really want a break. I need a long sleep. I need some personal time.

Whenever I think of you, a smile would appear on my face.
Thinking of the stuffs we chatted in the past, makes me yearn for it.
How I wished I could turn back time which I know It's impossible.
I remember you said you would send some warm jacket to me when I'm feeling cold.
Now, no one would say that to me anymore.
You're gone forever.
No more by my side to care and give concern to me.
No one to nag me to sleep early.
No one to pester me to eat my meals.
No one to surprise me with my favorite food.
No one to cheer me up whenever I am feeling low.
Others will comment me by saying stupid or whatsoever.
I don't care or even bother to what they have to say.
I know what I am doing.
I just freaking miss you, C.H.P!
Your smile melts me.
Your chats makes me happy.

After few months, I'm still clinging on...
Just like a panda clinging on to the bamboo sticks.
I'll cling till there are no more bamboos in these forest.

Lost without you...

Nothing Is Really Over Until You Stop Trying

2009-10-30T01:31:00.003+08:00

"Nothing Is Really Over Until You Stop Trying"

RED ASS

2009-10-21T00:00:00.003+08:00

Some overdue photos. Been rather busy with work & really lazy to update this rotting blog. I've many things in mind to post but ....

K came over to find me ytd and we had a nice chat. I don't know what I really want... After which got home and shower to meet ahhui. Sorry girl for letting you wait so long ! Had a bitchy chat with her and soon we parted. Met 'RED ASS' at my void deck. He look so different when in club and normal. SO DIFFERENT! He knows my weak point and he this red ass! We saw cockroaches! This red ass wanna give it to me. WTF! Argggggggg!

Lazy to update alr. Shall update when I have the mood

Till then.

Zirca / Rebel

2009-09-21T22:33:00.006+08:00

Not bad, thou small but fun =) Zirca's bouncer is damn cute and handsome! But he took a really long time to check my IC. Had to show him my MDIS card too. And finally he allowed me in. And there was a compliment from him! Aws, Melt. HAHAHAHA! You really disgust me... Things won't go back the way it was before in the past. There's a line to everything. I'll take it as you were drunk. Indeed many perverts. Yuks... Undecided decision of mine... =)

Laziness climbs over my head

2009-09-14T01:47:00.005+08:00

Say goodbye to your hair, nicholas. Haha

Some overdue photos, but for the complete set please refer to my FaceBook.

I am really lazy to blog already... People have been complaining that my blog is rotting. But all I can say is, I AM LAZY TO UPDATE! I have many things to blog but when ever I stare at my laptop's screen, my mind went blank. Well, I skipped this weeks clubbing. Damn boring week ahead... Mr K has P.O.P. Really hope to see him... Yearning to see him very much, but I am afraid that I'll fall back to my past footsteps. Nevermind, I shall look forward and keep a lookout ! Nic's gg NS tomorrow and I hope he will adapt it soon. Still remembered how we met and knew each other. Fate =). Shall club again soon!

Tomorrow's my off day and I have yet to decide what to do. Shall I rot at home again? Rotting is super boring.... But sushi makes my day =)

Clinging on to whatever I can hold on, but unsure of the strength that I am left with.

Why can't I just have the things that I love forever?

Guess it's all fate...

I shall surrender to fate then.

Terrible day

2009-08-23T01:20:00.003+08:00

Terrible day for me... The moment I stepped in the shop, I could hear Jimmy's nags and it was getting from bad to worse! I wonder how long can I endure these nagging. Was already pissed with my fringe and he thinks I am skiving. Imagine someone keeps nagging in your both ears till you go berserk! These is madness for Jasmin and me. Ahjim keep visiting me and the world is damn small. He also knows the somebody. Shocked for a moment, and jimmy's nagging came again. F*CK! Super pissed with him. But my mind was all filled with the somebody. And i realised, I miss you a lot. So much that I could bearly do anything and just think of the times we used to spend with each other.

Hongkong cafe with Jasmin after work, while otw home, saw Ahem's friend. My heart raced, suddenly I thought of you. Omg, lots of damn shits happened to me today. My mind is in a whirl now. Gawd damn it...

Missing you terribly alot...

Photos do the talking

2009-08-22T01:33:00.011+08:00

Cute Little boy with his attractive fly kiss!

Photos taken on 15 Aug @ St James Power House.

Photos taken on 9th Aug ; National Day.

Big Smile :D

2009-08-15T12:22:00.000+08:00

Have the feelig of updating but don't know what to type... So I'll just type what ever just comes to my mind.

The cheeky face of him is still in my mind. Whenever I think of it, eventually a smile will appear =)

Sick

2009-08-09T16:00:00.000+08:00

Sick for the past two days and I hope the fever doesn't come back.

Thanks for the concerns my dears.

Due to my fever, didn't manage to club =(
Missed two weeks of clubbing already....... It will be a torturing week again...

Though I'm over it, but I still care. maybe as a friend. I don't know what made you this way but whatever it is, it's your choice and I can't do anything about it. Takecare my dear =)

I am rotting at homeeeeeeeee !

Shall head out later for some fireworks session with my dearest cliques =)

WHY

2009-08-05T12:50:00.000+08:00

I got tuched by the slightest thing.
How dumb can I be?
Someone please knock some sense into me.
I need some air to breathe!
It's really too sudden till I don't even know what is happening.
Too sudden till I am LOST!
Why? Why? WHY?!

Arggggg~

Photos up.

2009-08-01T09:17:00.013+08:00

Insomnia again. Shall rest my eyes for tonight. Lights out =)

Lazyness climbs over my head

2009-07-31T01:54:00.003+08:00

Tired ! 3 days of full shift is really killing me! Body aches and everything, but lucky to have someone to text with to make my day :D Just roughly brief my week.

Had tons of fun last Saturday @ St James! (photos to be upload when I am not lazy =P)
Worked full shift the following day, but still endurable
Slept till late afternoon on my OFF day, MSN-ed!
Tuesday-Stomach cramps
Wednesday-Shifting and stock taking of pwp stocks
Thursday(which is today)-Full shift again
Tomorrow(Friday)-Half day!:D

Having this feeling again. So afraid... Time will tell =)

Linger linger linger...
Blurr blurr blurr...
Cute cute cute...
Miss miss miss...

Misses getting stronger as days goes by

2009-07-23T02:56:00.004+08:00

Back from Msia trip on Monday. Saw my beloved cousins and we were all missing the old times when we used to play together...

And was thinking of the "who" everyday without fail.

Am I too impulsive to make the harsh decision? Am I too dumb to listen to suggestions? But if it wasn't him who gave me those feelings, I won't make these harsh decision. He asked me not to regret as it's my decision. But I miss him so much that I've no concentration at work.

And today on the way to work, Memories just flash past my mind and I really felt sad upon my decision. How did i make these decision?! Why Why WHY ?! I kept repeatingly say "I want him back" But I know it's useless to say all this. Cause I have to bear the consequences if i were to have him back. But I really miss him fkg lots!

Why does every **** guys have the same thinking? FCUK OFF! I only want him. No one elses! Don't even bother to fantasize! I'll screw you up side down!

No one can replace you. Nor the feeling of you holding my hands and crossing the dangerous road and telling me those words.

The misses is getting stronger as each days goes by.......

Photos ; Stjames

2009-07-16T00:46:00.007+08:00

Some overdue photos on 11 july 2009 @ St James.

Tons of photos taken!

Was supposed to be celebrating 11july with someone. But ended up nothing in return therefore decided to enjoy myself.

Memories just flash through every minute and seconds when I am having my free time.
I know that it isn't worth it but the memories are still stuck in me.
I've got myself clinging onto the scene.
I don't know why either.
Text people and trying to distract myself but in the end, failed.
At the end of the day, I will still be thinking of you

11 June 2009 - 15 July 2009

2009-07-15T02:42:00.003+08:00

Put a stop to everything that is torturing me. Felt much relief after talking to Aloy. Glad that I asked him about it. Your words made me even more determine about it and the best thing is, pluck up my courage to forward him that text message which I just completed today. Though there would be still misses going on, I will overcome this barrier. Nothing will conquer me! The memories are there. It will never fade away.

Feeling numb all over. Will I break down? I don't know. Maybe I shall head to bed. Guess I'm really tired fighting these cold wars and I shall deserve a good rest.

Your love is a lie.

Party people

2009-07-06T00:33:00.005+08:00

Saturday
Worked half day and some childish kids said I was childish when I did nothing? Hey bitch, What in the hell I did to get your childish comments? Get a life pease? I can tolerate your stupid small eyes when in MDIS. But that doesn't mean I'm a easy to bully person. Grow up kid. If you are unhappy, just call me or come find me in the shop as you alr know where I'm working. So childish to even scold me "dont be so childish". Laugh my ass off kid. You are nothing in my eye. Just a stupid, ignorant kid =) He made it sound as if I was the one in the fault. Whatever it is, you think your way, I think my way. I rather not get the trust from you since you said that. I don't give a fucking dame. Rather tired in giving in than to be my usual self which I will fight for my own justice. I will be sticking to my own rules and regulation. If you crave for it so badly, find someone who can satisfy you.

Ended work and headed to Vivo to meet Dap and Joohniam. Went to meet up with Selena and got our way to power house! Drank quite a lot but I think I can make it! Sober till the last moment! Though at first couldn't walk straight. Hit the dancefloor and high high high!!! Some disgusting guys tried to grind! Felt so disgusted... Aws, There's some who was super cute when we went to another side of the dancefloor. Their way of saying good-bye was super CUTE! Damn the rock and shuting's cousin. Kept disturbing me using my Hp. And they say we're like lesbians. Crazy ... Saw Xiaomei at the stage ! Nice seeing her!

Great chill out @ Power House ! Shall head back to P.H soon! Maybe this coming Saturday or what...

Move Move Shake Shake

PARTY PEOPLE ~

Mood swing

2009-07-03T01:12:00.005+08:00

Photos taken on Monday/off day.

Met dap on Monday and headed to town for some walks. Char came later in the evening and we had some desserts before heading to Suntec.. .. .. .. :D

Mood have been high and low. These few days was quite alright, but still got the mood swings. Don't feel like serving those troublesome customers. I'll just give the fucking attitude to them. Just like this Cheena guy which is fucking irritating. Kept asking for discount when I told you umpteen times there is no discount on that item! Lucky he still bought it if not I'm so gonna curse and swear!

Lately have been thinking alot. Still no idea what I want. Random textes this few days. First was Joohniam, now is javier. How i wish Loves could text me more often! Been comparing you and him. After comparing, both wasn't that good either. Just that you've got the looks! Looks doesn't matter to me. It's the heart that matters. I just hope you would change and I could see what's actually in you heart (:

Hot and cold makes everything wet blanket. Don't do that to me cause who knows one day I might just let go...

Respect me for who am I and shall not judge me for who I am not.

Love me for who I am and shall not change me for who I am not.

Last but not least, respect yourself before you respect others.

I love you , Mum.

2009-06-30T01:25:00.003+08:00

Reached home and saw the cake that my mother bought for my birthday. Tears filled my eyes, and for once, I really regretted answering her back and not being a good daughter. Mother's love is the strongest!

To Mum :
Thanks mum for the cake. I really didn't expect that you will buy a cake for me. I'm sorry for the past for what I have done. From today onwards, I'll do my part as a good daughter. I'm sorry for showing attitudes for the past few years. I'm sorry.
I love you , Mum.

With loves,
Your daughter, Junie.

Miracles to happen

2009-06-27T12:38:00.003+08:00

Woke up early to visit the Doctor due to my coughing which already took place for almost a week. Been rather tired since Sunday, wasn't myself throughout the week. You never fail to occupy my mind with those words you mentioned to me. Guess I won't be seeing you even once before my birthday.

I never fail to pray to God for some miracles to happen bewteen us.
I know clearly that I'm lying through my teeths, but I just want to stay positive.

Think....

2009-06-24T01:46:00.004+08:00

Fuck life, fuck love, fuck everything. Screw up everything I have. All fucked it. Starting as good as an angel but as time goes by, turning into a devil with red horns. Why are all of them the same? Can't some of them just be exceptional from the others? I guess not... Was super shag today due to some fucking stuffs early in the morning. Late for work, but lucky jimmy didn't KP. The thing was in my mind all the time even though I still laugh or busy doing things. Every where is memories. Even in the shop. The route where we cross the road to MS, void deck, shell station, green tea and huggy and kissy scene. I can't simply make a decision right now. At the point of time when I'm falling... I don't want to regret my decisions. Seriously, I really didn't know what those actions meant. Can't they possibly use their mouths to say it out? What are mouths for? And i don't know why I would allow you... Ah, fuck it man. Vexed from all those thinkings whereas you just texted and ask me not to think so much and go home and sleep early when it's fucking hard to do it. Why can't they simply stand in our shoes? Is it so hard? Well, as for them, i guess so... Feeling so lethargic since Sunday. I ought to get this matter a solution. But I'm afraid that it would turn out negative. I seriously don't know what I want. I'm not sure whether few days are enough for me to sort things out. How can he say till so simple? Guess I really know who really cares and love me for who I am. =)

Having to think what I want ...........................................................

always exists in my heart

2009-06-23T01:15:00.003+08:00

Wasn't in the mood for work today. Can't help but to think of him. OhmyG... I still remembered what I thanked God for when I went to church.
"Thank God for K.Tjen" You make me feel happy when with you =)

Texted and told loves about it. I'm sorry for thinking about it =(
I was really afraid =(

My cough is getting from bad to worse.

He's presence always exists in my heart,
even though he isn't beside me =)

ily ; K.Tjen

2009-06-22T15:14:00.002+08:00

Last minute got to work, good thing in disguise as I have no more UPL this month. So pay will still be the same =)

Previous post was kinda messy, due to the mood that I was having ytd night. Well, didn't actually knew that I am falling for you alr. Missing you every single mintue when you aren't with me. And since then, I have been thinking alot. I know it's useless to think so much but I just couldn't help it. I am really afraid of losing you alr. Don't see me as a strong girl on the outside, actually I'm the oppositie on the inside. This is really a 'test' to both of us. And when after you told me about your nightmare, actually it didn't bother at all. But ytd after you left, on my way to Suntec, I have been thinking about it. Actually it does bother me alot. I'm really afraid you are still in your 'past tense'. Somehow, the feelings you gave me is quite similiar to him. I don't know... Mayb I am being paranoid. But I won't have this kind of feelings for no reason. Well, maybe one fine day I'll pour out my thoughts to you so that you would know what I am thinking deep down. I guess that's the only solution that could settle me down deep inside.

I would wish to treasure this r/s but it takes two hands to clap. You told me you would, but time will tell it all =)
Loves, I am missing you every mintue, seconds. How? I am thinking like what are you doing now, eaten alr, most imptly, will you be booking out this weekend and meeting me? =) I just have to see your cute face and spiky hair to calm myself down =)

Off to work, can't wait till ten for loves to text me =)

ily ; K.Tjen

I'm loving your everything

2009-06-22T03:42:00.002+08:00

Starting from what happened yesterday.

Met up with Loves yesterday night for movie! Freaking miss him lots! Chilled and slack till times up & I love crossing the road with him (: Went for our movie......................... =)

Today after church waited for loves to reach yishun, bought the tix and movie time! =) But after movie, loves got to go =( Felt sad but can't help it. Prepares to book in =) Freaking miss loves after we went our separate ways.
Trained down to Suntec & waited for Jasmin to knock off from work. Bused to Far East after that and met up with the bitches. Dinner, chill and photo taking done.

I love the way you hold my hands and cross the road

& saying that I'll be safe with you around.

I love the way you hold me in your embrace.

I love the way you kiss me in the lips.

I love touching your spiky(botak) head.

I'm loving your everything =)

Day 9

2009-06-20T01:38:00.006+08:00

The Reunion.

Food that Jasmin cooked for me!

Day 9
Started work late and CA and Maiko dropped by! Hahas... Had some mini talks and we were all cursing and swearing together. That's the consequences of offending girls. (Smirks) End of the day, joey came! It's like finally... After work, chilled with Jasmin at the same old place and had our secretive chats :D

Yes!! Will be neeting Loves tomorrow after work! Can't wait to see loves with his botak head! Miss him super lots!

How I hope you were with me every single seconds (:

Day 8

2009-06-19T01:01:00.003+08:00

Day 8
Morning shift... Waited in vain for Raffles City inQbox for the carriers. Texted jimmy that I'll be late cause of these. And he replied me : Use my key to open the door haha. And i called him, he laughed at my sillyness. Damn it, Am i so nice to get bluff? Shit him lahs. Opened door and 203 came. Chatted with her and was feeling freaking cold in the shop. First time... Had these feverish mode thru' out the day. Just hope I wouldn't fall sick on Sunday! Even if i were to fall sick on Sunday, I'll meet loves, no matter what!

Couldn't sleep last night. Similiar to last week... As he was booking in that particular thursday. One week since i last saw loves. Dry cough now and then... I freaking miss you, loves!

If i could have a chance to choose all over again,

I would choose this path again.

Cause I wouldn't regret making this decision.

Ily (:

Day 7

2009-06-18T00:55:00.002+08:00

Day 7
Tired.... Work's alright... Had some crazy laughters with 903. Jimmy came down later in the night and the nonsense began... Texted with loves after work and he went to sleep. I do hope the two bars of batt do last till saturday night! Can't wait to see loves on sunday !!!

Missing you all day & night long ~

Day 6

2009-06-17T01:37:00.003+08:00

Day 6
Work was fine, sales wasn't that bad but no commission ): Had supper with Jimmy and Jasmin at Newton Circus again and was texting Loves thru' out. After which, jimmy sent us home. And my Loves went to sleep (:

Sore throat again ):
How i wish ..... SUNDAY IS TOMORROW ! :D

You are all i ever wanted, Loves.

Day 5

2009-06-15T23:04:00.003+08:00

Day 5
Went shopping with mum today at bugis. Bought 2 pairs of shoe and a dress! Ahhh, lazy to update -,-

What's the past, let it be... I don't bear grudge on it. Treasure what you have around you and not let them slip away and regret it in the near future. Chances are being made out by humans!

Can't wait to meet loves on sunday...

Thank God for you, Loves (:

Day 4

2009-06-15T03:38:00.008+08:00

Day 4
Morning shift sucks... Dozed off in the bus like some sleepy person. Work was alright... Received K.Tjen text and he was damn free today. I rather they let him book out! "Ate snake" and sat in the storeroom with Jasmin. After work, chatted with Joanne on the phone and 9, wemt pff from the shop to meet up with Daphne. Headed to MS for our dinner and some girly talks! Sy came and more nonsense began. Chilled outside the toilet. Afterwhich, Home Sweet Home (:

My Loves ; K.Tjen

Day 3

2009-06-14T01:22:00.003+08:00

Day 3
Went out with Jasmin before work. Great day with her! Shall do it more often yea (: Anw, afterwhich, went to the IT fair and nothing caught my eye. And damn it, got so squeezing that my bag kind of gave way. Wth... Went to some sales and i bought some new bangles! *Happy*

Work's boring today... Feet felt sore due to those walkings done. Missing K.Tjen the whole day... 3 Weeks is freaking long man... Why can't it be 3 days? Why?! Why?! Why?!After work, loves texted me and standard routine, we texted till he goes to sleep. After that, chilled with Jasmin at some corner and cam whored! but due to her network problems, couldn't get it from her today. Shall upload it when I received it!

& you know I miss you so ; K.Tjen

Day 2

2009-06-13T01:18:00.002+08:00

Day 2
Had some conflict with someone when woke up. It really piss me off... Ah, Whatever. Anyway. had some phone chat with Daphne and Selena. Freaking long we last conference on the phone.

Work was alright, and the crowd was @@. Suddenly damn busy... Sales was alright. Bus-ed home after work and my loves texted me! Texted for a while and lights off for him.

Missing K.Tjen ~

The Very Special Day-Date ;110609.

2009-06-12T00:18:00.007+08:00

Wednesday
Work was alright. Met K.Tjen after work together with Jasmin for supper! Headed for makan sutra... After eating, we went to slack for a while and took off real soon. Jasmin went off and left me and K.Tjen waiting for my bus. And i realized, i had no more bus... So K.Tjen sent me home and we chatted at my house void deck. Just like a heart - to - heart talk. I'm really happy that he's being honest with me. Will not be seeing him for few weeks. Due to him signning on Navy... Poor him, drank till no voice left. Decided to part at 2am as he has to pack his stuffs and I've got work early in the morning. Texted and ......11 June 2009......

Thursday
Couldn't sleep, so decided to text K.Tjen around 5am. Saw his reply at 6am. Can't stop thinking of him... I don't know why...Texted awhile and i fell asleep. Suddenly woke up at 9.45am and I panicked! Cause I was suppose to open the shop at 11am! So rushed and luckily I made it in time (:
Commision :D! Had supper with Jimmy and jasmin... I can't stand Jimmys' jokes. He bought a new phone and he's showing off in front of us! And used his new phone to call and say was trying out his new phone! Action sial! Received K.Tjen's msg , texted each other for a while and he went to sleep.
Takecares, my boy.

The promises made between us.

It will stand till both of our feelings fades.

Feelings forming, & love's in the air.

The Very Special Day&Date ;110609.

Time is ticking away

2009-06-09T23:46:00.005+08:00

Opened the shop today , followed by Kenneth's call. Saying he will be dropping by later on. So did the sweeping of floors, dusting of boxes and wiping the island glasses. And soon, he arrived! Chatted with him and jimmy called -,- Saying who is that and i answered him, friend... And he said not boyF uh, then chase him out. If boyF, he will close one eye. Wtf man... What kind of boss is that... After hanging up, continued chatting with him... Didn't realized 1 hour had passed. Nice chatting with him (:

Work's alright today but jimmy has been giving me cleaners job to do. Therefore, THE COUNTER IS VERY CLEAN NOW!

Tired, tired, tired...

Shall head to bed soon!

SISTER(S)

2009-06-09T02:10:00.002+08:00

SISTER(S)

Okay, sister. Don't say I am bias or what. As these post belongs to you. One and only sister of mine. Well, time passes so quickly that when thinking back, we actually knew each other for around 6 months plus. And you have always been there whenever I needed someone. You will always be making me "paiseh" by saying those things and eventually I will 'scold' you asshole sial. I just don't understand why, whenever I am talking to you, my vulgarities are countless. Like what you said before, sister can make you laugh right? Where can I find this kind of sister who will let you scold and make you laugh? That's kind of true, though I think I am better than you! I still remember that time when I scolded you and you were burning hot in the inside. My apologys, sister. Glad that you didn't bear grudge on that. Anyway, sister, don't get into games and spend hundreds over it. Spend wisely too! Hope you do find your soulmate soon! Sisters for life bastard. Hahahaha~

Love Is Like A Violin

2009-06-06T02:24:00.006+08:00

Love Is Like A Violin.
The Music May Stop Now And Then,
But The Strings Remain Forever (:

Lately old man has been nagging continuously. No idea what's up with him man... Need a break from all those nags! Had some pranks with Jasmin at work regarding some stalkers. Damn irritated by those calls and asking nonsense... After work, bus-ed home... Otw , had some nonsense sms with jasmin and was giggling away like nobodies business. Freaking hilarious bodoh...

It's their choice and mouth to speak nonsense... Why bother? -.-

Yawns...

Dear Cara,

Happy sweet 17th brithday to you sweets... Though we have not known each other for years, but few months would do. It's really my pleasure to know you and just you. Shall meet up and craps soon! I miss you so ...

Seeya babe (:

3 months has passed...

2009-06-03T00:47:00.004+08:00

Just a blink of eyes and i realised that I have been working at inQbox for 3 months already. Time passes so quickly till I don't have much time to do the things I have been longing for... Things happened so quickly too within these 3 months... One thing that I am grateful is knowing that somebody (: Not to mention my fellow colleagues... Fate answers all the mystery ~ After knowing that somebody, my life changed... having to forget some ungrateful person... & knowing that someone nearing to 3 months too (:

Flu & cough have been pestering me this few days. Was eventually sneezing the whole day and Jasmin is damn irritated by me blowing my nose. *laugh* All your fault for passing the virus to me! Should have you quarantine that time. Not much appetite these few days due to this sickness I've got... But still have the cravings for cheese fries! Argh, should put a pause to it till my cough goes away. No off day for these week... Not sure whether will i be able to stand the shift... Rather stick to the previous schedue... The bold me texted that someone but that someone isn't free tomorrow... It's alright, there's always a next time (: Aws, having a sudden craving for fruit juice now =\

Shall meet Sy and Char or shop alone tomorrow... Sounds emo to shop alone but having to hear from Jasmin that shopping alone is fun, maybe I shall try it when I have the chance to (:

Just the thought of you, makes me smile (:

Madness, Crazyness, Ignorance.

2009-05-31T01:25:00.003+08:00

Madness, Crazyness, Ignorance.

Well, hindering into people's life isn't good. Dragging people in to the problem adds even more no good to it. No idea why people likes pushing blame when that someone did nothing at fault? Hilarious upon hearing it. But then, maybe they just wouldn't admit their mistakes in the first place. Therefore, they would tend to push whatever blame they can to others. Closing an eye towards all these doesn't mean we're willing to carry those faults? There will be retribution on you in near future ~

Ohkay, some really random talks ... The topic just strike me and here I am blogging about it . Weird people everywhere, including me . Just loves happy endings ! I bet everyone does too ! Almost hit sales target today but never ): Nevermind, tomorrow will be a better day :D Shop's music thing is down and NO SONGS THRU OUT THE DAY! Boredness filled the atmostphere ~

Still wondering how will be the june schedue be ...

Life is filled with ups & downs,

Learn to overcome when met with obstacles,

And everything will be sunshine after storm :D

Lift games

2009-05-30T02:15:00.005+08:00

Had some lift games earlier on with Jasmin. And god made an answer for me. Really glad that he's ohkay now. Upon seeing his message, was smiling like some crazy ass in the train.

Work was fine, had some crazy quiz with someone and she only understands me 60% only when she sees me EVERYDAY! How can she ^%#$#%$&%^%$^. You have to buck up ley GF. Lol... Still considering about 6th june outing... If he were to go, I will for sure GO lahs. But as for now, let me think ..............

And our dear joohniam won't be working with us anymore... Well, though you will be entering army, we could still hang out and talk cock together. Shall see you soon PIG :D

If i could minimize you, i would do it and put you in my pocket and never let anyone own you (:

Friends VS Lovers

2009-05-29T01:42:00.005+08:00

Maybe someone was right, we shouldn't take everything so seriously. Treat it as a game... Having ups and downs, sad and happy... Well, things aren't meant to be then so be it... Won't force tooo...

Had this mini talk about changing our image to "shu nu". Just wondering what will next month be...

I'm leaving things as it is for now... Sick and tired already.

Just missing the times we chatted together... That's all (:

Maybe it's better to be friends than lovers...

time - break

2009-05-27T02:18:00.002+08:00

I need a time - break from everything.
I hate waiting....
Fate, it's just an excuse to humour myself...
Whatever it is, I'm just gonna leave it as it is..........................

Wonders

2009-05-26T01:42:00.003+08:00

Upon hearing that you were unwell, my heart stirred....
How I wished I could be there for you. Just my wishful thinking...
Anyway, take care of your health and drink lots of water.
Rest well and sleep more!
xoxo.

Had fun with the girls today at Kbox. Really have to train back my voice cause I found out that my singing sucks big time today. Or maybe my mind is filled with other stuffs? No idea...

Shall head to bed and call it a day.

Wonder when we will watch a movie together again...

I wish....

2009-05-25T03:24:00.004+08:00

Full shift today & sales wasn't really good. As usual, talk cock with Jasmin and recently many customer says that we look alike? Had some hilarious nonsense at the toilet and others are laughing at our stupid-ness. Didn't know her maths calculation was so good. After which, listened to her 'stories'.

Memories...

Met up with Daphne after work and trained back to Yishun together. Chilled and lepak at 925. Ladies talk (:

As what I have said, I'm really afraid to fall into the trap again as I have a weak heart.

I don't wish to go thru all those again but I just wouldn't want to give it a miss.

Kind of disheartening upon hearing tomorrow's movie was cancelled.

But I understand your situation.

You have got to rest more and recoup your sleeping time cause I remember you love sleeping.

Movies can be watched anytime but sleep is more important!

At times, I really miss ........ (:

No empty promises?

2009-05-24T01:00:00.004+08:00

Never did i expect these in the first place. I was being nice enough to be there for you and the best thing is, forgive you. But what did i get in the end? Attitude. Oh great. whatever it is. Fuck off. Don't think that you are handsome or whatsoever bullshit. Was really pissed off by how you replied me today. Is there a need to show your fucking attitude when i am just asking you in a polite way? Splendid... If these is what you want, then so be it. From now on, we'll be merely strangers. Walk pass by me and I don't even give a damn looking at you. Cause you aren't worth my eyes to look at. Useless, at these age of yours, you should be planning of your future. You should know what i am refrerring to. Shall not contact you anymore (:

Saw CA and she shared with me a good news. She got FIRST! Thats great my darling... Having to see her happy face makes me feel happy for her too. I saw my SISTER & weiting too! Idiot sis, didn't tell me that he's going down. Got a shocked! Happy to see my sis too!! *Laughs* Jimmy has been bullying me thru out the day ): What a boss. Lol...

However, I still hope you will remember it (:

No empty promises?

Smile with no regrets :D

2009-05-22T01:31:00.008+08:00

Works fine today. Always being 'bullied' by jimmy as usual. Had dinner at food republic and their service sucks big time. But anyway, earned a free meal for the pig. (laughs)

I seems to be hiding away and shoo-ing away from you. I'm just afraid to see you... I can't really explain it myself either. I tried ways to overcome it but it has to always be jas who is forcing me to ... (she shld knw what) The feeling is back and ... i don't know lahs... Let fate decide and shall leave it to fate. Fate ah fate... Anw, thanks God for letting me know you (:

Smile with no regrets :D
I wonder does 25 still goes on anot... (:

Only You

2009-05-19T23:57:00.003+08:00

Photos taken on sunday

Many things to do when reached the shop. Thanks to the pig who opened the door early if not those people would be waiting for me to open. After which when everything is done, went for lunch with Nic at 'kou fu'. Wanted to had our lunch at food republic but due to lunch hours ):

Kept bickering with each other about whether got a lot of customers anot. It really has a lot! Just that maybe people rather see or sit duck tour than to see your contact lens :X*HAHAHA* Headed back to the shop after lunch and jimmy was there. He started to gave me shits to do such as vacuum the boxes and sweep the floor.

Kind of lazy to elaborate further. Have some photos with Jasmin. Will upload it when i have it.

The day is fine when with you.

Cheerful self begin to arose.

Memories stays within us.

Just a look of you satisfy me (:

pending

2009-05-15T01:05:00.002+08:00

( PENDING ...)

Shall Update Again.

Please Come Back Tomorrow :D

Hate(s) ; Impatient

2009-05-14T00:02:00.005+08:00

Shy, only towards Juice (:

Sales wasn't good the past few days. But today was really busy with the stocks and everything. Done and backache. I can't deny that I'm getting older each day. Heard from my friend about these "kids" tagging at her blog. Well, their just keyboard warriors. Just let them be and they will feel inferior when thinking back about their childish acts. Such a failure acting at this age of theirs.

I just simply hate sore losers. Don't ever promise things when you can't take the losers punishment. Just fuck off far away and never ask me to play the stupid and boring game with you. Makes no sense to play with a sore loser. I rather watch my shows or surf the net. Don't think that ure famous and whatsoever. It leads you to no way. Please don't talk to me about your relationship stuffs when they doesn't even involved me. Thinking back, I was rather stupid to be there for you when you hurted me so much? Craps though, but I dont bear grudge. So I'll let the past be the past. Just get these in mind, don't ever fucking play any stupid online games with me. Thank you very much.

Should I go for the resit? I've really no confident in passing it. ):
All the things in my brain are just stuffs of boxP and those rental stuffs? Oh my gawd...

I wanna get many things but I've got no time! Argh, nevermind, I'll find some time for myself :D
Shloud I buy the dvd? Ahhhhh! Can't make up my mind -,-"

Can't wait for 25 May :D

Happy pills

2009-05-11T02:09:00.003+08:00

I'll not let pass you by me like a stranger.

Awaiting for the day to arrive.

You make me smile with no worries & I'm loving it.

Happy pills once again (:

More of it

2009-05-09T02:04:00.007+08:00

Smile all your troubles away! :D

Happy Birthday My Dear Daphne.

May all your wishes and dreams come true.

And I'll keep my promise to love you more every year !

Haha, See Ya soon (:

Ended work at 6 today and Met Ca to Vivo and meet up with Yumi & Xiong. Seems like Ca & me have many things to chat about! It's really nice talking to herrrr! Later in the night, headed down with Ca to Era. Saw the H1N1 Louis . Used the computer for an hour and talked to H1N1 for awhile. And i rang CBS up! Saw him and yeap, cabbed home with Ca!

I'm really looking forward to our next date! So cool talking to you! :D

Though scars have been made, but it faded away. But now, all i know is that my stomach is growling -,-"

Shall turn in now !!!

Goodnights my dear friends! Xoxo!

Reply of tags.

Isabel : JUNIE!

ME : HELLO!!!

Daphne: more heart-to-heart girly yippie conversation! (:

ME : Sure ! (:

S: you left me out with the heart girly yippie conversation. haha, crap

ME: Haha of cos not forgetting you (:

kenyo: how r u?

ME: Fine.

hhuiix: meeet up soon ! misses you !

ME:Yeah !! Meet up soon!!!!! Roar ! No saying of lazy the next time!!! Haha :D

Feelings aren't the same as before

2009-05-06T01:14:00.005+08:00

Been catching up with my bestie(s) recently and never ending stories! And there's more to come!

Kind of felt sucky when someone says these, but does that. Does it benefits you? I don't think so, it's up to you to say whatever things that you like. All i can do is just listen and the next second, forget about it.

That stupid L kept disturbing me to play viwawa's game with him yesterday night and he was supposed to give me a morning call today. The patient him, called me 10 times before i picked up the call. Was really way too tired. Who asked him to keep spamming me to play with him the night before. All my answers were the same " yaya, okok, awhile more" . He got so fed-up that he gave up and went to sleep :X. Stop mentioning that I owe you 3 meals ley! Bodoh ... :X

B.S exam next week, yet to study. (stress coming soon)

The feelings aren't the same as before. But what I can do is to find a new feeling. It's much more better then remembering the old feelings. What hurts the most is being so close, having so much to say. Watching you walk away. And never know it, what couldn't been, and i'm seen and loving you.

Hugs ; Misses.

2009-04-25T02:14:00.015+08:00

Was supposed to meet 'Nabuey' today for breakfast but I overslept due to my Handphone went low batt ):! I'm sorry 'Nabuey'. And the consequences is I owe him another meal. Wtf.... New girl came to work! Hope she'll get used to our nonsense. Had some cam-whoring session with bird! & makan-sutra after work.

Maybe it's just some foolish thinking of mine. But whatsoever, I'm gonna lock you back and throw away the key to it. Whatever it is, you'll forever be kept deep in my heart.

Hugs & Misses.

countless of chats

2009-04-24T01:11:00.005+08:00

Work's fine today but it's kinda warm. We were all going crazy over that mini fan. Mine's the watermelon! No wasting of my batteries! I'll shout till you go deaf :D

Met Dap after work and trained back yishun together. I didn't want to go home early so i suggested to chill and have some drinks. Headed to 925 and slacked. Talked many stuffs and we have countless of things to talk about. But time was running out and we've got to say goodbye to each other as we both are working tomorrow. But we're meeting up on Sunday and we can continue our countless chats! HAHAHAH! Really love talking to her . Maybe the reason behind to it is, she understands me well. (:

Yummy;FruitJuice

2009-04-22T02:14:00.003+08:00

Someone triggered the memories I had with you. Had I known, I wouldn't put myself in so much pain. But that's life for everyone. Hardship is a must for all of us. It's almost half a year, and I just have memories lingering in me. Not knowing how to discard it far away. Anyway, I didn't regret my decisions. Therefore, I shouldn't even think of him. Ahhhh, I'm in dilemma......

Work's fine for me today. Fucking good sales. The stupid pig not bad in pushing the '399'. Lols. I just love the way I am now . Enjoying the presence of my dearest friends. Hearts them to the max.

Whats your will eventually be yours. No matter how hard you to to make it yours,if its isn't fated, say byebye to it. :D

I just want to drink Fruit Juice. Can I? :D

each other

2009-04-21T01:01:00.004+08:00

Glued myself to the laptop and watched 17 again & X-men. It's been so long since i glued myself to some online shows. But I've got backache after watching it ):

Earlier on had some phone chat with hujihua. Talked about somethings that sounds funny. As what I have said, it's the past. So we'll just look forward and plan for our future! Have some experience yourself and you will get stronger. When the sun rises the following day, it's a brand new day! Big smiles to RAINBOW!

Working tomorrow. It's always so boring when bird's not there.

I want to watch 'Friday 13'. I just miss the times we text each other (:

On the way to my dreamworld... I hope to see you in there :D

Goodnights everybodyyy!

MYOB

2009-04-16T01:03:00.006+08:00

Some expired photos.

Am just back from Porridge buffet. Had a really nice chat with the girls! Before that, Char and Dap came to dropped by at the shop and i was kind of surprised !

Keep your s*cky eyes to yourself. Your making my friend feel uneasy. Leave those critisim to your girls. I don't think neither of them deserves it . Eyes OFF my friend.
It's none of your business with the things I do. MIND YOU OWN BUSINESS. Thanks you for your cooperation. Keep your f*cking comments to yourself.

Note it

2009-04-13T22:14:00.007+08:00

Lack of sleep yesterday and was damn lethegic at work. Joanne Peh came in the shop and she's damn pretty! She's damn friendly! Aws, sooooo pretty!!!!

OFF today and nua-ed at home. Audi-ed for a long time till my shoulders ache. Ohkay, nothing to post already.

AND i got to declare something. I did not take up smoking. As for those who say that particular post about smoking. I'll make these clear. Is some KPO person asked whether do i smoke anot. And whether i smoke or did not smoke, doesn't matter him? Ohkay, everythings clear?

Shag, next two days full shift. Fucked up schedue. Looking forward to Friday cause I'll be meeting BestFriend!! :DD

I really hate BURP(S)

2009-04-12T01:19:00.002+08:00

Flunked my PMPM. Damn it... Nevermind, kind of expected it already. Went to eat with Dap and Lyn @ suntec. Then headed to work. Work was quite alright expect for some things. I'm really kinda pissed off, really. Tolerance has a limit. And i can say that, my tolerance is over limiting already. Ca dropped-by to say hi to me! Damn hilarious that she mistook Jaslyn as me. And the whole procedure was damn hilarious. She's really a sweet girl! Aws, just that some people does not know how to treasure such a nice girl. Star came to say hi to me too! (:D) Sis and some of them came too and headed to subway after work. It's really kind of ark ward facing him face-to-face. But it's all over :D! The past is the past. I wouldn't let the past haunt me. Laughed at myself when thinking back that i actually kind of broke down that day. Headed home with Jasmin ....

PS. I really hate BURP(S) . =\

donuts

2009-04-09T01:19:00.003+08:00

Kind of addicted to donuts lately. Ohkay, i know it's kind of fattening, but I am really craving for it!

I'm working 11am in the morning and i'm actually still lingering on msn and stuffs online. I wonder how am i gonna pull myself up tomorrow morning. Later the bird will be nagging me to go and sleep. HAHA.

To my dear girl,
I don't think you should even cry for something not worth it at all. What's done is done. We can't turn back the clock. Just treat this as a cruel experience. As what you have said, Once bitten, Twice shy. Next time you should really get to know this person thoroughly before making any decisions. It isn't you losing out, it's him. So no worries my dear, you'll find one in the near future. As for now, just enjoy life! And I'm glad to have known you. It's all fate. Though we don't know each other for a long time, but we do click very well. When we have the free time, we can chill and talk craps together :D
Cheers alright? (:

I HATE EXAMS!

Why is it that people tend to ignore messages? I tried means and ways to try talking to you but...... Nevermind then. If it's what you want, I'm find with it (:
But it's a little sad ):

Message tone

2009-04-06T01:52:00.005+08:00

Am now crapping with bird @ msn. Never ending talks with that birdy girl.
Makan-Sutra after work and our eyes were damn busy. HAHAHA! After eating, went to see the sea and chatted! And she called ahem ! Omg, damn paiseh =\
Guess i'll just wait for messages to come as promised! :D

I seriously don't know what I am thinking.

Ohkay, gonna chat awhile more & off to bed.
Goodnight & sweet dreams peepo(s)!

PS. SISTER(Joey), Happy 20th birthday to you again! I fucking miss your jokes and miss you too lahs. Laughs... Meet up soon Bastard! :D

HK Cafe

2009-04-05T01:09:00.005+08:00

Been heading to HK cafe today and yesterday. I'm really sick of the Dim Sum they have there! But never was I sick of the companies that I've got. Well, failed to meet up with Dap today but we'll meet up for sure this coming week! Miss my cliques damn much! Missing the crazy and laughter times together! I don't know why I'll get frustrated when I talk to 'him'. Sorry to say that. I need something new! Something that will make me go mad! I guess Jasmin & Jaslyn would know what I'm referring to! (:X) Know some dirty secrets and I'm really speechless!

More new things are coming soon! I guess so? More of chill out(s) please!

PS. Jasmin, when will we have our makan sutra date as promised? :X

M-O-O-D-L-E-S-S

2009-03-31T01:05:00.003+08:00

Met Mr Fnn @ 3pm. Walked to cathay to have our movie tix and headed to PS to walk. Had my all time fav JavaChipFrap @ StarBuck. He said out of 10 ppl, 8 ppl prefer Coffee Bean and im de 2/10. That makes me unique :X After buying our drinks, de bored us headed to bunk to play some online games. Times up and headed back to cathay for our movie! What a lame movie "Coming Soon". Boring movie.... Waste of $$. Then headed for our dinner @ LJS. Been craving for that since my 1st day of work. Felt weird when eating, cause we didn't really chat much =\. Felt really weird. And i dont like that feel at all. &&& i DIDNT GET TO SEE DANIEL WU! WTF %$^%$^%$^%$ Everyone were crowding and IM WAY TOO SHORT ):
Schedue's out and heard that my schedue is damn 'cho'. Shag... After he went off, went to meet yao and the rest. Slacked till 10+ den headed home. Met kenyo & his bro under my blk and chatted nonsense. Lol. They damn funny lahs. Clock strike 12am and said yes to home :D
Anyway, I just hope .............................................

Somehow, i just miss some feelings. I don't know how am I gonna explain how i feel. Guess only Jasmin knows how I am feeling. Some minutes I feel like wanting, but the another minute, I don't feel like. Feeling damn whirl and I don't know what I actually want. When beside, the feelig was like when I am with... That's the feeling i disliked most! Maybe it's for the time-being....

M-O-O-D-L-E-S-S is how i feel.

PS. It didn't turn out the way I want.

Smiles

2009-03-28T00:46:00.002+08:00

Back from 'dinner' at Hk cafe. And yeah, this bodoh drove round and round of tamp cause he lost his way. While talking on the phone, this bird and bodoh keep parroting me! Fucking irritating. And yeah, I'm really looking forward to Monday!!! I can't wait :X

I did one fucking embarrassed . OMG lahs! Please don't ask me what is it.

You will never fail to make me have a smile on my face. Your just like a happy pill to me. Allowing me to have the special feeling once again. But I'm not sure how long can these feelings last. But one thing that I'm sure of is when i devoted myself to somethings, I'll never give up.
But, I'll still leave everything to fate :D

Cuteness melts

2009-03-27T00:04:00.003+08:00

Rotted @ home today as there's no place in mind for me to head to. Was awaken by Daphnie's message and headed to audition straight after my washed up. Afterwhich, chatted with nicholas @ MSN till dinner time. The very random us talked about ghost. Damn errie to encounter stuffs like this. And he asked me lame jokes too. Buck up on your jokes Mr F&N :D

I'm having this weird feeling. Unable to describe it out. But one thing I'm sure that I really hate this kind of feeling. It really suck to the max! I can't be soft, if I want to do big things. but I'm really............ ARGH!

Yawns, I'm working tomorrow. Guess I'll turn in early? Provided someone turns in too (:

He's way gnikcuf too cute :D

message kaki(s).

2009-03-26T01:41:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow's my off day and I'm glad that I can sleep as late as I want. Isn't that great?! Well, few days of work was damn bored. But I'm lucky to have a message 'kaki'. It's like we're both entertaining each other.

Today, yihao came to find me for lunch together with his campmate. My collegue said he looks like Yang Zhong Wei? It's like, so much different can? Work was boring today. Yumi, Yao, Xiong, Mao came to find me for dinner too?!?! And thanks cookie monster for the cookies! Didn't really expect you'll buy it for me >,<

I love message kaki(s). Rocks my day :D
Indeed, he brightens up my day (:

Sweetness;SugarOverDose

2009-03-24T00:28:00.003+08:00

Taken @ Yaoyao's chalet (:

Haven been feeling this for effing years. He's damn sweet & caring lahs! I simply can't stop grinning ear to ear :D Fuck that bird, kept saying dog here dog there. Damn kpo about that thing. LOL! Damn fucking pissed with someone lahs. It's like none of your business if i smoke or if i am rough? Dont say till like you can read someones' else future. Look yourself in the mirror, you think you have the fortune teller looks? Omg man...
Glad that i dont have to see the BIRD FACE TMR :D
But i do have to see the fucking BIRD face on wed. HAHAHAHAS!
SugarOverDose with fruit juice :DDDDDDDD!

FnN Guy

2009-03-22T21:09:00.004+08:00

Friday 20 Feb 2009

Met with Ahhui & Blue after work and headed to Yao's chalet. Tons of stupid photos taken.

Sunday 22 Feb 2009

Went to Food Fair with mother and I spotted a cute guy again! (HAHAS) Afterwhich, when to work and i told Jasmin about it. Daphnie & her went to Food Fair and they really saw him! At first they plan to bluff me that he's a fucking attitude guy but i find it rather interesting leys. Then suddenly, they laugh fucking loud man. And they said they were kidding. And i got it ! Hhahahahahs!

And now, i'm waiting for replies again? ._."

Hopefully he's much more more more more better (:

Edited /12.59am

Mr LG added me in MSN and i was shocked ! Cause it's like so random! Anyway, had a short chat with him & he's damn cute lahs, keep apologising =\

So cute (:

Ohkays, off to bed .

Goodnights peeeeeeeps!

cutie

2009-03-19T00:19:00.002+08:00

I'm really starting to get the hang of everything at work already. it's isn't that hard to remember where the stocks are placed and how much they cost though sometimes i would still ask for help ! But that's normal for a new-comer !

Well, derrick & glenna dear drop by to visit me! Miss die them! Ahjim which is my boss is damn funny. Kept saying he lost 22k in don't know what thing. Abit lame lahs but he is a nice boss afterall.

Kind of pissed to wait for messages. As i was really expecting a reply, but none at all. Today in the shop, my mood kinda went sot. Felt like crying at that moment of time. But it came and ended quickly! Really sot lahs this kinda mood, plus the atmostphere added more emotional to it.

Does it pays to have a cutie contact? Maybe cutie isn't just interested. Well, i did what i could already and i'll just leave it to fate ! There's more to come :D

As for now, Mr LG is the cutest! :D

Mr Lg Guy

2009-03-16T11:16:00.002+08:00

Damn fucking tired from yesterday's shift.

One fucking handsome guy came in our shop and Jasmin told me to see and Omg, got spotted by him! :X
Damn paiseh man...
The most embarrass thing was i brought jasmin to the IT fair and showed him the cute guy!
Indecisive me, but ended up making a final decision! And i got IT! :X
Omg fucking cute can! HAHAHAHAHAHAS!
But it takes two hands to clap ):
Seriously Mr Lg, ure fucking cute! :D
I just hope to see you again! :D

Today off day. Thought i could have a nice rest but nope. Mum's friends came and mahjong session. There goes my rest day ):
Now my life is just working working and just working. No time to go out ):
I miss Daphne, Sy, Csp, Ahhui, Flo, TwinnyJ & many more!

Ps. I hate full shift ): & i fucking miss him though I saw him ytd & idk when i will be able to see him again )): !!

CuteSingTelGuy

2009-03-15T02:18:00.002+08:00

How nice of AhJi & WeiTing to drop by to 'see' me :x Damn ahji keep repeating the xlover. !@#$%^&@#$% Go die please.

Shag, tomorrow shift from 10am to 10pm.
SHAG! Fuck, for nothing i owe someone 2 meals =\
And nabeycheebye keep bullying me ._."

Ohkays, off to bed now !

Nights ~ :D

Ps. Tmr last day of IT fair means last day to get to see my singtel guy ):

cute guy

2009-03-13T00:57:00.002+08:00

Fkg my old phone. Always giving me probs. But my problems has ended cause my mum bought me a new phone! Went to the IT fair during my break with my mum and as expected, packed with people. The guy intro-ing the phone to us is damn cuteeeee laaa! I think i decided on this phone is partly of him. LOL! Damn fkg cute laaa!!!

Afterwhich went back the shop and tell them about this cute guy! DAMN CUTE SIA! :X

I wanna hop by again! ;x

:D

2009-03-12T12:29:00.004+08:00

I don't know why i will bother to reply your msg(s) though it's not worth it.

Had late dinner with Jasmin @ MakanSutra yesterday & she's really nice to chat with!
I'm really a quiet person, no doubts. (HAHA)

Ps. i'll do the relinking on my off day! Really pissed with my fkg lappy. Keeps giving me the *cannot find server*

Ure just merely a passer-by. Whether or not if its done by you, doesn't matter. Glad that we're cut out from contacts. U live your life, I live my life (:

:D

1st day of work

2009-03-08T23:34:00.004+08:00

First day of work.
Stood for 9hrs plus? My foot is damn 'sour' now. Tired die me.
And the best thing for me is that first day of work and the next day is my off day!
Cool man....
Still, long hours after my off day ):
Ahhhhhhh!
Tired tired tired !
But overall, it's fun working with my new colleagues!
Got to replenish my energy !
Poofs :D

Job hunting

2009-03-05T12:31:00.006+08:00

Went to Suntec yesterday with lovely Mango as she has the craving for pudding milk tea. Taste not bad but i prefer the mango ice blended! Damn niceee! Was trying to taste for the pudding but it's always the pearl i'm tasting. Afterwhich, went for our lunch cum dinner. And job hunting after that. Filling those forms till %$#%#%$%. Someone flied me! (Roar) Acc sp till her bf end school and yay home sweet home :D

Reply of tags

mangoCSP: LOL killer cpl LOLLL ;X II MISS MATI YOU TOO ! );

Me : Ya Killer couples!

zhiiyangBLUEツ: BigHead Bell ! ;x booooooo ! =x

Me : F.U ! *slaps*

Silver.C: Thanks bell. (:

Me : Np (:

JiiaTong: relink needed:D

Me : Relinked (:

fion: tag {:

Me : Hello ;D

glenna: heard that there'll be outing this sat?

Me : Yeay ! You'll be coming right? Imy ):

hhuiix: bell bell bell bell bell bell bell :X jy for ur exams ! ;DD

Me : hui hui hui hui hui ! You two jy ! Hee ^^ Love die you. HAHAHA! ;x

Yvonn: when online? when online? haaaaa

Me : Im onlineeeeeeee ! :D

my5centworthoftots: be urself & trust ur own decision. take advise from ppl dun mean u have to use it..

Me : Thanks for the advice (:

mangoCSP: ii hope & wish our phone will ring soon with unknwn numbers LOL ! yishun is gonnna rainn soon AGAIN );

Me : LOL! Why with unknown numbers? My place still bright sio :X

3months later

2009-03-03T21:45:00.007+08:00

我把回忆关进房间眼前不断浮现
有你陪我所有画面朋友说我变的沉默
变的有些难过邻居都听见了寂寞

也许时间给的太少没有珍惜你的好
城市太喧闹你没有听到我不该把手放掉
没有了你没有爱情什么都已经是空气
这些没有你的日子没有了自己
没有了你没有力气孤单香水却来袭
我想念你身上气味请给我互相拥抱的机会
你离开后我才明了幸福已经溜掉你也许都不会知道

也许时间给的太少没有珍惜你的好
城市太喧闹你没有听到我不该把手放掉
没有了你没有爱情什么都已经是空气
这些没有你的日子没有了自己
没有了你没有力气孤单香水却来袭
我想念你身上气味请给我互相拥抱的机会

爱情如果都是微笑那多美好天亮的太早在偷一秒
想你的笑想听你吵才发现思念发酵耶~

That's how i feel now.
3 months and still feeling the same.
I[L]N[M]Y

ps.Thanks H for those talks (:

SHAG

2009-02-28T13:34:00.003+08:00

SHAG! Was supposed to sleep at 2am+ but i can't even sleep! Damn it. Kept turning here and there till 5am+ . Went and study. Cheesebun, study 1hr plus, i felt tired and i went to sleep -,-"
Woke up at 8+ and yeah i was late as my exam starts at 10am. Whatever. Fuck sia, don't know whether i can make it anot. Damnn !

" Don't worry and just do what comes to your mind first. Don't bother about what others think and just go ahead with it. But never to hurt yourself. Whatever it is, we (friends) will always be there for you. Jiayous! (: "

I've got photos to upload but got to wait for yvon to load and i shall be the honoured one to ''kop''. HAHAHAHAHHA! :D

Gatherings

2009-02-27T21:45:00.005+08:00

Had dinner at long john silver with Daphne, Sy, Yvonne & Dawn. Been a long time since we sat down and chat! My apology for leaving early as I have exams tomorrow ):
While talking in the toilet, a malay auntie came speaking in malay which neither of us understands it?

Within this week, several things happened. Hard to explain what happen, but i can only say "Friends will always be there for you when you need someone. Only true friends will be there for you." Well, doesn't really matter if it's lovers or friends. You just have to know that the person you cared and love is doing great, I guess that's all that matters? But different people have different thinkings. But no worries, you are surrounded by lovely friends :D

& some random things happened yesterday. Don't treat me as entertainment. Thank you.

How remorseful can someone be? No idea. Lol.

I wanna have more gatherings! I love my group of friends :D!

Seriously, I HATE EXAMS!

2 down ; 3 up

2009-02-20T01:24:00.007+08:00

BS down, now left with 3 papers. I really hope everything will go smoothly for me. & yea, i need to find a job now. It's really hard to find a job nowadays and my mother has been nagging me since day 1 when i took up this course. Or should i say since N level? All mothers are the same. No exceptional right?

I'm tired, dread from all those thinkings and whatsoever. All i want now is FOR MY SHOW TO LOAD. WTF! There's major problem & it seems that IT ISNT LOADING!!!!! WTF! Jerry Yan D: He just makes me remember of someone (: & yea i miss him infinity ! But.... Nevermind! It'll go away eventually! Hee... (ocb-i guess only 2 ppl on earth knws what it means? :X)

I've got a 'wonderful' sister. Since today morning before i took my exam, he has been cursing me to fail and for someone to pass. It's like WTF!!! I'm your sister and ure helping an outsider!!!! You asshole sia sis! And yea, towards you, my vulgarities would be flooded :D No secrets yeah !

Seriously, i really need a job !!!
Anyone who comes to know of some job vacancy, could you kindly please contact me? :D

Don't be upset over losing something/someone but instead be happy that you once had them before (:

Upcoming paper : P.O.E

Cliques

2009-02-17T23:31:00.007+08:00

Group Photo

Audition Cliques :D
The Red Clan

The Ladies

Cliques is loved (:

F.I.T exam is over! Awaiting for the next B.S exam. Damn shag ... Still got 3 more -,-"

Ohya, i got a scratch on my hand and its damn freaking painful! Argh!!!!

Thanks sis for listening to my complaints :X

Photos from Vday .

I love my Cliques :D

Happy Valentine's Day

2009-02-15T12:43:00.004+08:00

Sis & Me :D

Silver & Me :D

Happy Valentine's Day !

I did cookies ! But till the third attempt, it came out nicely ): Had a single group outing yesterday. Waited damn fucking long for them to arrive! Gas die me!! Afterwhich, yumi & yaoyao went to buy a smini cake for blue aka xiaolanjiao :X Belated birthday celebration. Omg, lazy to update -,-? Photos taken but i've got to wait for yaoyao to send to me :D. As for now, i'll just update photos with sis & silver :D

I hate exams =(

/Edited@12:58am-16Feb09

Fuck man, left 1 day left to memorise F.I.T stuffs. ARGH! IRRITATING SIA! Damn fkg tired.

I've 3 more sub papers to go. Overall 5 papers -,-"

Tired die me ~_~

ABC

2009-02-13T01:43:00.004+08:00

Two days of mugging and im tired. Previously, i was dozing off at my lappy table and sleep for hours. But as for now, i can't. Exams next week and it's so stressful!

Treasure ; Lost ; Cherish .

Felt much better after clearing "ties" with you (: Lessen loads off my chest. Whereas, i hope we won't interfere into each others life. But of cause we're still friends. Ocassionally, we could exchange some messages with each other! My quote to you " 你开心就好". Hmmm as for the future, let fate decide. What's yours, will end up being yours. No one could snatch it from you.

All For You ; One For Me ; Couple

Memories

footprints

left

behind

....................

XOXO

Misses`

Great Thanks

2009-02-09T12:12:00.006+08:00

Really thanks to all those who cared about me! Fate can't be changed so I'll just leave things the way it is now! For now, i wished that all this 'horrible nightmare' will go away !

Thinking of how we met and all this. *laughs* Really memoriable (: Thanks uh :D! But I didn't blame you or anything cause i know neither did you want this to happen.

Really got to thank those being there for me!

Mango,Yumi,Joey,,AhHuiAhHua,AhBlue,Mayi. Really got to thank yumi&joey for accompanying me. Cause i won't know if without them, I don't know what will happen to me at the chalet.

Don't have to keep repeating the word 'SORRY' to me. No worries, I won't be a burden to you. Just smile and enjoy your life!

Will upload the more photos soon?

TO.BE.CONTINUED

Goodbye

2009-02-08T12:17:00.004+08:00

Was Actually telling hiro about my greatest fear. And fantastic, it happened? Splendid isn't it? Got to give a pat for myself for telling my own future? I don't know if it's a positive or negative thing that i saw it with my own eyes. How torture can that be. No one could understand how i feel. Bottled up my feelings till the max and i called mango. How i wish i could just hug her and give myself a big 'cry' out. I just don't have the courage to tear in front of others. Bottled up everything really sucks big time. Felt like infinity of knifes stabbing right into my every part of my body. I wonder how bad can that be when I'm actually afraid of pain. When i opened my eyes this morning, i actually thought i had a nightmare? But it wasn't (: This is reality. Fate, i guess? Tried calling someone which at that point of time i wished to talk to, but couldn't get through his phone. Really felt like dying man. As i had said, im so afraid of pain, how can i die ! Sometimes i really do hope death can give an end to every sorrows and pains we've got.

Since you've already made your own decision, i could only wish you luck. But remember, no matter how many sorry you said, i don't think it will help much either to the pain i've got. Just enjoy your life with her, forget my existance. I guess you would be much happier without me bothering your lifestyles? I guess so. I think yesterday will be the last time we'll be seeing each other already. Anyway, good luck in whatever you do and god bless you two to be loving as before. Take great cares and I'm gonna disappear from your world.

Those were the days...

A lil thought would do

Year 2012 ; Memo 1

New year 2011 , New revolution

eleven08ten

weekly routine

6 down and 2 up

I rather have bad times with you than good times with someone else.

爱上你是不需要理由， 因为那个理由已经足够

Time for miracle

Should I?

I wanna see that eenie meenie miney mo lover of mine

Sunshine after rain

Whatya want from me

Eenie meenie money mo lover

Eenie meenie money mo lover ♥

Remedy to my illness

FUCK

I am back !

home

Lost without you

Nothing Is Really Over Until You Stop Trying

RED ASS

Zirca / Rebel

Laziness climbs over my head

Terrible day

Photos do the talking

Big Smile :D

Sick

WHY

Photos up.

Lazyness climbs over my head

Misses getting stronger as days goes by

Photos ; Stjames

11 June 2009 - 15 July 2009

Party people

Mood swing

I love you , Mum.

Miracles to happen

Think....

always exists in my heart

ily ; K.Tjen

I'm loving your everything

Day 9

Day 8

Day 7

Day 6

Day 5

Day 4

Day 3

Day 2

The Very Special Day-Date ;110609.

Time is ticking away

SISTER(S)

Love Is Like A Violin

3 months has passed...

Madness, Crazyness, Ignorance.

Lift games

Friends VS Lovers

time - break

Wonders

I wish....

No empty promises?

Smile with no regrets :D

Only You

pending

Hate(s) ; Impatient

Happy pills

More of it

Feelings aren't the same as before

Hugs ; Misses.

countless of chats

Yummy;FruitJuice

each other

MYOB

Note it

I really hate BURP(S)

donuts

Message tone

HK Cafe

爱上你是不需要理由，因为那个理由已经足够